Ungrateful Friendship

I won't cry
I'll be fine
It's not a lie
And I keep forcing these lines
Into this shattered mind of mine

Is this friendship a lie?
I cared about your feelings...
When did you ever care for mine?
When did you ever ask what went through my mind?
When were you there when i needed a shoulder to cry!?
Never. That's what it seems like...
Now that you have hurt this heart of mine
No tear will fall down these cold dry eyes.
What kind of friend are you!?
Making me want to die...
Making me feel like... slithing my wrists, into slices.
Making me want no more of this ungrateful life!
No pitty from you is desired.
It's unwanted. And so am I...

So when I'm needed,
Whenever your life falls apart
I will not be by your side.
Not in this life;
I will be
nowhere to be seen.
But perhaps I'll be here
in the afterlife we will live in
If all this hurt and anguish have left from within me- by then.